Wednesday, January 14, 2015

I Have a Confession...And a Question for You :)

(Deep breath)...

I work part time and lately most of my time there I am thinking on coming home and doing art or scrapbooking which I haven't done in so many years. I am thinking on my blog and all the things that I like to do and I can share here.

I feel overwhelmed most of the time. there are so many things that I enjoy doing that my mind goes crazy, is spinning all the time. Is like that wheel for the setting that we have in our phone or tablet, but mine goes round and round where in every tiny turn there is an idea there of what I can do and make when I get home.

But then I come home and is like I am in shock. So many thoughts that I don't know where to start. My table is taken over with boxes of things that we, I mean... I need to clean up and I don't want to do it because it takes all my time. I know if I start doing it I eventually will finish it in a week or so but then my mind jumps somewhere else, thinking about house work and I don't feel happy doing art if my house in not all tidy... am I nuts?

On the other hand my boss tells me all the time that I am meant to do what I do at work. I am a preschool teacher and a few years ago I open a blog called Storytime Storytime and More, but then I stopped posting since my daughter grew up and the activities changed (now she is almost 10)

So tell me please,...What is wrong with me? (Sigh)... (Deep breath)...

I have two set of times for myself every day: one is in the morning from 5:45 am to 6:30 am and the other one is from 12:00pm to 2:30pm but then all I am thinking is about dinner housework laundry etc, etc, etc.

There have been times when I leave my personal things, like art journaling, sketching, etc, for after dinner but no, that doesn't work because I am not by myself at home. so I dedicated that time to either check my emails, maybe some crochet and read a book which has worked so far for me.

But what about my other two small set of times?

How do I take advantage of it for my passions?

Why do I feel so guilty or anxious about using my little time for what I like? Believe me I have read tons of self help books to help me with this but the overwhelmed and the confusion are still there :(

Does anybody have had this problem?

How did you overcome it?

Thanks for all the help I can get :)

Love,


5 comments:

  1. i feel the same way as u. I will tell u what i did. First of all i clean my mess onmy desk. If u have too much ideas,write them in your book then go one to one to realise them, hope this was helpfull

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  2. i feel the same way as u. I will tell u what i did. First of all i clean my mess onmy desk. If u have too much ideas,write them in your book then go one to one to realise them, hope this was helpfull

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  3. Oh my goodness Eva, you got it right on the dot. That's exactly what I proposed to do myself two days ago. Clean my work table and write down all the ideas that come to my head, I've been praying and meditating to get a clear head on what to do and this is what I came up with. Thank you so much for sharing what works for you and mostly for caring to leave a message for me, thanks a million. I love your Golden I have one too :)

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  4. Oh my you have it bad. It's called creativitis. It can be cured. Like you said breathe. I feel the same way. I work full time and right now I'm typing the comment. See you're not the only one. When I'm at work I think about art and when I'm home I'm in my art room. Granted my daughter is 26 and lives far away but my house doesn't get cleaned, laundry done when I have to have clothes, and it takes most of the morning at work to actually focus at work. BUT like Eva said in the first comment, I write everything down in my planner. Ideas, websites, color combos, etc. Once they are out of my head on paper it sure helps me to focus on what is right in front of me.

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  5. Hey there crafty frustrater :-) fear not your life is just busy with life and your passion is on hold. However, your passion is due to burst because there is no outlet. Firstly being a Mum and being creative its about setting the scene or in other words creating a blank canvass. You need to set too tidying up your home so that it is free of clutter free from stress. Make your home a colourful palette for you and your daughter. Create a space for both of you to get creative. Get a pin board decorate and make it a pleasing design that fits with your home. Once you have done that get some paper and for each day of the week even if its just an hour here or there put in eg... Monday breakfast, doodle, brew get dressed, Tuesday evening meal, crochet, brew bed, Wednesday dinner at work, sketch ideas down, return to work etc. You are a parent and that must always come first however, you could get your daughter involved in scrap booking and use this time to research your creative brain. Does any of this make sense? Clear your house clutter to clear out your brain clutter :-) ♥

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